True Bliss :)

4:42 PM @ May 29, 2012

Its my time.. Its my life.. I can do what I like.. For the price of a smile, I gotta take it to ride!!!! :D

It feels right, and its so nice and I’d do it all again.. this time its gets better.. and I like h0w it feels..!!

Sh0w me l0ve, make us 0ne, lets make a beautiful w0rld.. Take my hands, it’s a ride, ‘coz tonight we can fly! And I Really Like H0w it Feels !!

The ultimate feel-g00d s0ng there is!!

Lurve yu mi chico! Enrique para siempre!!!

True Bliss :D @this moment! L0ve it!

Sending 0ut l0ve to the entire w0rld!! *h0pe the entire universe reflects it back, like Anamika Ma’am said* :D :D :D

xoxoxoxox

/farheen

Hypocrisy much?

A few months ago it so happened that 1 Anne Marg, Patna ha to deal with an unexpected power cut for a little more than a few minutes. Oh! and the hue and cry about it. Newspaper headline. That was its worth. One would think what a developed society where even a few minutes of Electricity shortage is a taboo. But Wait…

Reality Check Time

24th May 2102, Karkarbagh, Patna (The Same City):

Facts:

Extremely low voltage for the whole day

No Power Supply in the evening

Fluctuating Voltage, Non Supply for the entire course of the night.
Same situation continues the next day… still continuing

However no heed is being paid to this situation. Why? one would ask… The answer is that this is not related to the public elected VIPs it concerns ordinary voting crowd who have to toil all day and then come home hoping to rest for a while. Rest, which is only the birth right of our elected VIPs.

is it always necessary to give a title?

“And I just stopped…

to forget myself into the silent flowing water.

I had lived and lived and lived

Never veered towards the rare

I forgot to learn who I am

Travelling through life without paying my Fare.”

-meg

 

Hi I am back after my long long hiatus. Well the above piece is just a little something that was going on in my head. Comment?

Continuing the jubilant mood that Farheen initiated--- Yay !!! we Graduated. The results will be out in a few days and for the first time we will be truly be free. I mean after (10+2) it was not really freedom considering graduating is the lowest acceptable qualification in the modern job market. But now we can actually quit studying if we want to (not that i want it but the situation is quite FEEL GOOD). Two days from now is the M.A. Entrance Exam season. Nothing feels like “have studied enough” these days… but this comes quite close.

So it is time to Thank my stars for a great alma mater, great teachers, wonderful friends--- good times that I never want to end.

-M

     

GRADUATION

 Well, I thought I’d write this the day the results are declared. But then, the day the results are declared is, well, the day the RESULTS are DECLARED! And I honestly don’t know what great swing my mood will take on the day. So, here goes..

Graduation!! A great, perhaps one of the most important part of life.. and I’m past that great period..! But hold on a sec! I am neither sulking over it nor glorifying it! 

And if, after three years of studying literature, m sitting over here clueless about what to right next, I am gonna have to kill myself!!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

Or perhaps it’s the overwhelming nature of the experience that I’m writing about that makes me so clueless..? Whatever.

Here’s a checklist.. as the first step to review the last three years.

Great friends: Check.

Great time: Check.

Satisfying Achievements: Check.

Good Results: Check.

Adequate Co-curricular participation in college: Check.

Interpersonal Relationships: Check.

Marriage Proposal (what! A grad girl should get one J): Check.

Love: Check. (Apna Enrique h na :D)

“Bada” hona : Check. :P

Bunk karte hue pakda jana : Check. Meg! J)

Teacher(s) se gaali : Check. (Thank yu so much, Library J)

Prizes and appreciation. Check.

Recognising oneself: Check. (at least at the moment I think so!)

Drink/smoke/drug: Uncheck.

One Great Emotional Upheaval: Check.

Encounter with weird people:  Check.

Encounter with Really Great People: Check.

Feeling Proud and Blessed: Check.

Feeling terrible and miserable: Check.

Grad Party: Check. J)

Well, then Yes, the grad-years were satisfying. FYI, I like the mixed bag kind of feel.. for failure is as much a part of life as we don’t want it to be. And the running away from failure.. Man, O man, that’s the real thrill of life :D Its like you got a cape on your suit and a massive fan behind you is trying to pull you in.. and you run and run.. for you know the moment you slow your pace, in the fan goes your cape :P

I also feel that I have grown up! The 3^rd year results are due in a few days, and I also got my M.A entrances coming up. But here I sit, completing this write up! I don’t have my heart in my mouth (like in 2007), nor am I shouting at every living soul I lay my eyes upon (as in 2009).. So, yes, I am emotionally better balanced now. :P

These years have been really eventful!

From Fresher’s Day compeering to Annual Day Felicitation.. from the very first thing, to the very last. From being the lonely student to being a part of PWC- Dept. of English Family! From crying alone to crying when alone.

From a non-grad to a grad! :D

That’s something, aint it? J

YES, WE DID IT!

@meg, @qd, @vasu, @PP, @chamiya, @slishi, @megha : I l0ve yu gals.. sooo sooo0o0o0o0o0looooo much!!

In the end, as Spice Girls said it..

As we go on.. we remember, all the times we spent together.

And as lives change, come whatever.. we’d still be Friends Forever!

(Sabne ek dusre ka ghar dekha and then apna ye pyara blog hai na J))

Itna pyaar diya tum logo ne ki mere to aankhon me aansHooon ki boonde aa gayi :’(

P.s : Maybe I haven’t really grown up as much as I’d like to think I have. Ai want to write so much m0re, but the result-scare aint allowin’ me to do so! :’( 

Signin 0ff with a big bag 0f mixed em0tions.. Until the next time, that is J

C ya soon with my next. :)

/farheen

If Tomorrow Comes: Book Review by Farheen Aziz

Well I had promised myself that I will live upto the great PWC English Department Tradition of the Fortnightly Book Review!

So, here goes.

I haven’t really read a new book for reviewing, but what’s new in not having read a new book? :P I’d still write a review.. and will also miss Shahala Madams’ marking my review notebook (mostly with a perfect 6! :D :D)

Now.

Ques.: Apply two literary theories (in very short) you have read on the novel you have selected for reviewing.

If Tomorrow Comes by Sidney Sheldon

Sidney Sheldon is one of the best and most widely read writers of the 20^th century genre of thriller fiction. Being a white American novelist his race consciousness has manifested itself in the novel. An element of racial superiority is evident when E. Littlechap, the black woman, remarks about Tracy, the protagonist, a white American female “You got class. I ain’t come across many decent things in my life. You are one of ‘em”. The absence of blacks from the novel, which virtually travels to a larger part of the world and the stereotypical representation when present (like the character of Littlechap in the prison) lays bare the colonial ideologies of the novelist.

The protagonist of the novel is a self dependent, self made strong woman who outwits her male counterparts and revenges the death of her mother single handedly. We read the novel from her point of view. So far as the character of Tracy is concerned, Sheldon will be lauded by the feminists, but apart from her, the female characters in general are always at the margins (there are actually no important female characters in the novel except Littlechap and Tracy) and stereotyped as seductress and to be won over by a piece  of jewellery. The novel, thus, can be said to share the anti-feminist perspective, if ever so, unconsciously. By a mysterious absence of women, except in shops or as the arm candies of power yielding men, the novel blurs its very focus, the presentation of powerful woman in a ‘man’s’ world.

The novel can be compared with Steig Larson’s Millennium Trilogy. Tracy and Salander (the female protagonist of Larson) are much alike and yet very different characters. Tracy craves for a man’s love, even after being dumped by his betrothed. She hopes that her man will come to ‘save’ her, going against the society which he values so much. Even the ‘happy’ ending of the novel is reached when she finds her true love in J. Salander, on the other hand is a more realistic character. There is no fairy tale happy ending for her, she does not believe in one. She does not respond to any promise of a ‘safe’ life, is not lured by a man’s love or care, is fiercely independent and self made. Physical intimacy is a biological need for her, shorn of any emotional connect, whatsoever. The fact that Blomkvist (a male) comes to her rescue does not mean that she needs to be ‘protected’ or ‘saved’(she has saved his life more than once). On the contrary, Blomkvist is the one who is ‘scared’, both because of the condition he finds her in and of losing her. Salander is the straightforward woman who, hardened by the childhood experiences of an unstable family life (she tried to kill her father when she was 12) never shows any emotion, and even after she has had her revenge and starts leading a ‘normal’ (by her standards) life, she is the same woman: enjoying outwitting others, living her life on her own terms and NOT locating herself in the arms of a beloved. By making Blomkvist long for Salander’s companionship coupled with Salander’s easy attitude towards him and in not giving the ending a ‘happily ever after’ feel, Larson debunks the myth that a ‘happy’ life must a stable one (especially the one with a partner). Larson has portrayed Salander like other writers generally portray a ‘stereotypical’ male character (Read, a ‘better’, superior form of human life). Larson, we can conclude, has risen above the general practice of straitjacketing male and female characters. Salander, thus, is any person, not a ‘male’ or a ‘female’. This kind of a conscious attempt, handled meticulously, ensures that Larson has made a woman the true protagonist of the novel, in the spirit and not just for namesakes. A brave attempt by Larson which, perhaps due to his historical positioning, Sheldon could not make!

 This has crossed the word limit. But, then this isnt the first time I crossed it :P

Thank Yu so much for reading.!

No SR to mark me on this, though L

/farheen